i'm listening to this song by the thermals called a pillar of salt, and it's not a good song by any means, but i feel really nostalgic listening to it. i feel like i'm 16, even tho i didn't really listen to this kind of music when i was 16. quite a weird feeling. i guess at best it's a guilty pleasure.
and there's sort of an excitement in the air. i don't know what brought about the feeling. maybe it's being excited about my new laptop setup (god i'm a dork). maybe it's that call i got and am expecting. maybe it's because i'm finally getting to hang out with the friends i hadn't seen in a while, for goodness sake.
the nostalgia and excitement i'm feeling can't really be described, so i won't even try. i don't want to jinx anything anyway.
and there's sort of an excitement in the air. i don't know what brought about the feeling. maybe it's being excited about my new laptop setup (god i'm a dork). maybe it's that call i got and am expecting. maybe it's because i'm finally getting to hang out with the friends i hadn't seen in a while, for goodness sake.
the nostalgia and excitement i'm feeling can't really be described, so i won't even try. i don't want to jinx anything anyway.
"objects in motion stay in motion, objects at rest stay at rest (both hold true unless there's an outside force)"
people with motivation are continually motivated. people who are not will never be. both true unless there's an outside force.
i've always considered myself pretty motivated. sure i can be lazy at times, but i sure as hell didn't get to where i am based on my intelligence or my physical beauty. i think it's safe to say i've earned everything in my life by putting in the work that i knew i needed to. and since i hate settling, i've always strived to create my universe the way i wanted it to be. until recently, i was satisfied with the work i put in, and was also satisfied with how my life was looking.
now i sort of feel like i want more. i love my life and i'm fortunate to be where i'm at. i realize this as fact and i will never take my current state of affairs for granted. however, recently i realized that i haven't seen much of anything. i was so focused on the prize and what i felt like i HAD to do that i didn't stop and smell the roses. i didn't travel the world. i didn't make the most of my time off. i jumped right into a 9-5, and i'm playing the "what if" game in my mind virtually all the time now because of it.
my job: couldn't be better. my girlfriend: pretty stellar. my friends: will always be there for me, despite my inexcusable absence the past year or so. it's sort of a spoiled mindset for me to want any more than this, because this is a pretty fucking good set of cards i got. but i need to go all in. i need to either win it all or fall flat on my face. at least i'd have a good story.
and in order to get a good story, i need to take a chance. i'd be able to stop saying "what if" if i quite literally just did the damn thing. being able to act upon that idea would take motivation. maybe more motivation that i currently have.
i think my motivation has been stopped by an outside force, so as with inertia, my motivation is at a complete stand-still. maybe the outside force was the notion that i may have used up all my motivation. or maybe what my parents would say. or fear. or not knowing where to start. or simply the mental inability to leave what i've grown accustomed to.
ideally i want to live somewhere else for a year. too many factors are telling me no, but i'm trying to convince myself that i have enough motivation to say yes. i just need to break out of my comfort zone and take a chance that many of my peers have already done. they have nothing but happiness to show for it.
leave all the great things about chicago, or potentially fall flat on my face in a different area, knowing there's a possibility for exponential personal growth?
people with motivation are continually motivated. people who are not will never be. both true unless there's an outside force.
i've always considered myself pretty motivated. sure i can be lazy at times, but i sure as hell didn't get to where i am based on my intelligence or my physical beauty. i think it's safe to say i've earned everything in my life by putting in the work that i knew i needed to. and since i hate settling, i've always strived to create my universe the way i wanted it to be. until recently, i was satisfied with the work i put in, and was also satisfied with how my life was looking.
now i sort of feel like i want more. i love my life and i'm fortunate to be where i'm at. i realize this as fact and i will never take my current state of affairs for granted. however, recently i realized that i haven't seen much of anything. i was so focused on the prize and what i felt like i HAD to do that i didn't stop and smell the roses. i didn't travel the world. i didn't make the most of my time off. i jumped right into a 9-5, and i'm playing the "what if" game in my mind virtually all the time now because of it.
my job: couldn't be better. my girlfriend: pretty stellar. my friends: will always be there for me, despite my inexcusable absence the past year or so. it's sort of a spoiled mindset for me to want any more than this, because this is a pretty fucking good set of cards i got. but i need to go all in. i need to either win it all or fall flat on my face. at least i'd have a good story.
and in order to get a good story, i need to take a chance. i'd be able to stop saying "what if" if i quite literally just did the damn thing. being able to act upon that idea would take motivation. maybe more motivation that i currently have.
i think my motivation has been stopped by an outside force, so as with inertia, my motivation is at a complete stand-still. maybe the outside force was the notion that i may have used up all my motivation. or maybe what my parents would say. or fear. or not knowing where to start. or simply the mental inability to leave what i've grown accustomed to.
ideally i want to live somewhere else for a year. too many factors are telling me no, but i'm trying to convince myself that i have enough motivation to say yes. i just need to break out of my comfort zone and take a chance that many of my peers have already done. they have nothing but happiness to show for it.
leave all the great things about chicago, or potentially fall flat on my face in a different area, knowing there's a possibility for exponential personal growth?